Dear Twenty-Something Me,
First stop thinking you are fat, you aren’t. Wait till you are 40 and had a kid, whine then about your weight. Enjoy that gorgeous fake blonde hair and keep ignoring the roots. Spend a little more time in shorts and mini skirts you can so pull it off!
Don’t marry James to just to get out of Arkansas. You can finish college on your own, taking out a few thousand in loans and living with your parents for a few years. Marrying James will turn out messy. He actually loves you, but you are too naive to understand. You will grown up and become more independent and James doesn’t want that. He likes that you are young and fun. Serious Lette will scare him, Independent Lette will make him miserable. Just keep working at Walden books and going to UALR and you will graduate, it just may be a Bachelor’s degree on 8 year plan.
Still take a ride on Kim’s CBR 600, but don’t marry him. Learn how to ride a motorcycle, you spent 5 years living, breathing motorcycles, but you never learned. Ask! And when Kim says no, ask one of the other guys at the bike shop to teach you. Stop thinking you will drop the bike, you might but so what! Learn to ride. The first time Kim throws something at you and takes a hammer to your rocking chair, you need to go. That young Lette is a sign of serious problems. Let him go.
Instead of spending your 20’s married take care of you, find out who you are. You turn out to be pretty fab! Travel to Corpus Christi to see your friend, Rena, but go to Padre Island too! Drive into Mexico and spend the day. You lived in Texas for five years, but never got all the way to Mexico! Go!!
Instead of marrying the guy in the uniform, you go and get yourself one. I know you joined the Army, but you waited until you were 25 and you were married to Kim on the verge of divorce. You spend your 2 years in the Army refusing to let go of Kim and refusing to put any effort into what you were doing. Put the effort in, stay and do your five years, go to Kansas when the Army sends you there. Be a journalist, live in the barracks and have fun.
You got to travel across the United States, you drove from Fort Meade, Maryland to Vancouver, Washington. You loved that drive, you had no job, $5000 and a cell phone that stayed charged for 3 hours. I love that you went on that drive. Thing is once you got to Washington, Kim asked you to drive back to Virginia so you guys could have another chance. Say no!!! Tell him you are staying in Washington that you are living your life on your own.
Young Lette!! Don’t be afraid to be alone! These men that you cling too, that you bend yourself like Gumby to keep, aren’t worth it. Let me just tell you, in the end James dies, Kim is an Art teacher with a kid. And you, you are alone. So let them go and be okay with yourself. Figure out that you are messy, (because you are), that you like having ice cream for dinner and go on a date. A date that does not end in marriage!
Finally, when you meet Joe let us look at some things that may be problematic.
He’s still married.
Drivers License is suspended for reckless driving.
He is on probation for felony theft at his last job.
He is working as a cook in a restaurant, but quit because they cut his hours.
He can’t pay his rent.
His family refuses to help him out.
His car is repossessed.
And all of these things are not his fault or so he says. And you will try to fix these things! Don’t! You can go on the date, but after you hear the above mentioned things, RUN!
You turn out amazing my dear Lette, but it is a tough road.
Love your old self!